Week 3: Move Right Along Despite Myself

I have one thing to say about this last week, and that would be that I am glad it is over.  I’m struggling.  I’m finding it hard to always stay on plan.  I know this wasn’t a normal week, I know that it would be easier if I was exercising, but ugh. Just ugh.  That being said, the scale cooperated.  Sort of.  My scale is a bit schizophrenic.  Pretty sure that our uneven tiled bathroom floor is to blame, but it has almost a four pound variance.  I try to put it in exactly the same spot every time (I match it up to the random gray tiles) but even so I usually weigh myself more than once to make sure it is consistent before I consider it a “real” weight.  Today, it was particularly grumpy.  I blame it on my four-twenty wake-up.   So this is a number that I got more than once and it falls in the middle of the ones it gave me.  I’ll take it.

Current Weight: 267.4 

Change: -2

Total so far: -9.4

I know, two pounds is awesome, I just don’t feel so awesome.  I’m having a hard time with the nighttime snacking.  My solution for that last time was working out in the evenings, but so far the weather and my knee haven’t been cooperating.  Tomorrow though, i have hope.  If the weather is nice I’m taking the girls (including the dog) out for a walk after dinner.  It will keep me from going stir crazy in the house and I’ll get to see how my knee is doing.  It will be good, as will mowing the lawn on Thursday.

The other thing I’m struggling with is seeing the effects of this all on the way my clothes fit.  I think they fit better, I mean over 10 pounds (from my max weight of 280) is really something, but as Liz says, when you have this much to lose, it is hard to see.  Patience, I know, I know. I’ve always been more of an instant gratification person, which may explain how I got to be this size.  Food is the ultimate in instant gratification.

Speaking of Liz, she’s been a huge inspiration for me.   Her honesty makes me want to be more brave and share more, because I know that in sharing comes support.  If you don’t know who she is, you should.  She’s blogging at Jen’s site (another pretty damn inspirational woman and a fellow north sider), and at her own.  In a world where it seems that people only use religion for hate and fear, she gives me hope.  She lives her faith, and it is something I have incredible respect for.   Go, see, she’s awesome.