Its weird you know, to realize the space that someone took up in your life, and then realize the gap that is there.
I don’t make friends easily. Never have known why. I guess I’m weird? Whatever the reason, I treasure the friends that I have. Especially the ones that stick with me when I’m a flake and antisocial and just busy.
It seems weird, but how do I fill this space? Space filled by someone you talked to nearly every week day for a year and a half? Someone you could go to, when things were crappy? Someone you could go to when excited?
Kind, generous souls don’t just fucking grow on trees. Especially not in IT where there are egos, and EGOS and more than a few people who lack basic social skills.
I thought today would be easier. It wasn’t. I thought working from home would be better, than I could just work from home, and forget that hole in the office. I don’t think its going to work. I may be the most social introvert ever, but I think I need the office. I need something, to fill the space.