“I just want to have fun again!”
The moment I said it, I knew it was one of those universal parenting truths that you think, but that should never pass your lips. Like “I miss being able to go more than two hours without peeing.”
Some days I wonder if I was really cut out for being parent, like somehow the universe got it wrong and maybe my my PCOS should have meant no kids and I should be vacationing in Europe right now. I know that this is passing, that the funk I’m in won’t last forever and being a mom will be fun again. Right now though, I totally get how some moms can just walk away from their kids.
I’ve been in a funk since before my birthday. I sort of figured that it would all be better in September. So far I’m zero for one. I am sure that it doesn’t help that my therapist is on maternity leave until January.